change

i don't do change - i really don't. i take too long to adapt to new things.

I just don't like change.

But the past few years of my life have been nothing but change. Moving, losing mom, losing my job, getting a nephew, getting buddy, and finding a new job. Its been alot, and i haven't liked it, i haven't done well with it, and i wish i could make more sense.

In fact, i'm starting to get a real problem with change. Its not unhealthy yet, but i'm finding it hard to take all the changes that have come up.

I know that live is about changes, and that a static life isn't a realistic expectation.

but i'm also competitive, and i see everyone else making changes in their lives, and i'm envious. I can't grasp the good things in my own life for spending too much time looking at other peoples lives. I also know that live isn't a competition. I know that.

I've had alot of time to take stock in what my life is about.

i'm happy... even if its not what my fb status says, or what i'm twitting... i like my job, i love my hunny & my buddy, and i'm moving forward. That's what its all about! (hokie pokie)